be still

Okay, one more post from being sad about a friend leaving.

There's this song on KTIS and there's just one little line "Be still and know I'm here. You are not alone."

That resonated really well with me. When I think about my future wife, I have this emotional picture of comforting her with things like "Be calm, be still, be at peace. I am here, I am with you. I am the one who loves you dearly, the one who would die for you..." and Christ would add "I am the one who has died for you."

AWESOME!

God feels this way about us!

I don't know if any of you guys can relate, but when I apply how I feel about women to Gods relationship to me, its amazing. I don't know where you are with God, whether applying fleshly pleasures into the game would hurt you or not, (personally I don't think I'm that strong yet.)

But all the noble, protection, provision feelings are amazing when I think that the God of the universe feels this way about me!

I used to think that women had it lucky because they were designed to be loved, and would be better suited to enjoy Gods love, but now I see women don't have it the best after all. We men know what amazing stuff is going on on Gods side too! (well, women can figure it out, they're smart, but they're not hardwired for it)

WAHOO!

beautiful sorrow

Okay, again depressed from friend leaving. (I always get my best theories when I'm sad).

I kind of like being sad. You appreciate the things around you, and you can feel self-pity without feeling guilty. OK, that's not the best way to think about it. Grief is also epic, and it denotes change.

So, I kind of like grief, and I'm thinking, 'bummer, we can't be sad in heaven.".

Well...maybe. Sadness could also be us changing right? And if we're learning more and more about God, then we change, right? So we continually learn how bad we've been (even though we're perfect now) and God jumps in and says 'forgiven!' and we get this sorrow mixed with incredible thankfulness joy.

I thinks that's beautiful, don't you?

I would enjoy dying with grief and gratitude, keeling over in wonderful pain before the cross as I am purified once again.

Maranatha Lord Jesus!

Come quickly I'm getting impatient!

heaven is not static

I was greatly depressed recently over a friend leaving permanently. Bummer. I was running through mood swings and imagination, lost in thought and quite sad.

I tried to console myself with heaven, but a constant state of joy seemed to be ruined by a constant existence of loss of other people.

But then I thought, why does heaven have to be static? In fact it isn't. Every day we will learn more and more about God. And it won't be like 'oh, he's bigger now', it will be like entirely new facets and dimensions of logic that will boggle our mind and make us entirely forget about human relationships.

I am reminded of the song "Once you feel the weight of glory, all your pains will fade to memory."

So no matter what mayhem and unimaginable sorrow you're going though right now, trust that things will change. Not only is it very likely to change in a month, or even a week, but even if you carry it the rest of your life, you'll die sometime, and then Gods glory will be too much to ignore.