glorious solution to problem of evil

My original defense for the problem of evil came from Romans 9:19-24, something like "Who are you, oh man, to talk back to God?" where God do whatever he wants with us little people.

This is entirely true, but its rather depressing and only half the story.

I started wondering about the main fault with argument against God using the problem of evil. It concerns the contradiction of evil with three of Gods qualities, omnipotence (all powerful), omniscient (all-knowing), and omni-benevolent (he is good to everyone). And it came to me that the theory, within omni-benevolence, assumes that humans are faultless and so God is required to save us 'innocent' people. Yeah right! We deserve some punishment!

But it gets even better. God is not only just, he's also benevolent. But how on earth does he bring people trouble and stay good? Well, just like humans aren't guiltless, we aren't perfect either, we need to be made better (edified), so he sends trials out way. Its like surgery without anesthetic. It's painful, but after it's done you thank the surgeon with all your heart.

Don't you want to be made better, better able to love God, a better person? Of course, even if its painful! This makes it possible for us to thank God for our trials, with tears of pain and joy. In order to change somebody, you have to tear down the stuff that needs to be changed. That is trials.

So this makes the story of tribulations glorious. God is wooing and purifying his bride, us, the church. He is making us better for himself to enjoy, and we delight in being made better! It's amazing!

Maranatha! (come lord Jesus)

stress of amazing God, life trajectory

Recently I have been highly animated, stressed out, and on fire for God. I wonder how, biophysically, humans can contain such a heightened level of experience. I may attribute it to some disease like mono (I'm tired a lot of the time), or something, but who knows?

So the questions is: what does everyday on-fire life look like? William Carey worked 14 hour days and is considered the father of modern missions. But he died relatively young, had a psychotic wife, and couldn't raise his children.

So how do I handle it?

And what on earth am I supposed to do for the advancement of Gods kingdom? This blog is kind of nice, but its only useful if people start seeing it. I could go from city to city speaking, like the Rebelution, which so far seems best.

But I have a good life trajectory set for civil engineering. Should I drop that and go philosophy? I suppose I'd only be dropping a couple years of my life, and gaining about 30-odd good ones.

But its such a hard decision! I pray that God would give me guidance.

May my struggles help you figure out what God has in store for you.