I was sitting in my room having another one of my depression sessions, knowing that God was awesome and that his power working in his sons and daughters was wise beyond all else, knowing that God was the fundamental foundation and origin of all meaning, but still dissatisfied.
Trust me, these dissatisfactions are not fun, but they are great for producing wonderful lessons as I find solutions.
Today I was primarily tired. However, I also simply questioned living. I know how to live and breathe and do Gods work and ejoy myself in minor ways. But how does one LIVE? Like robust rugged health and purpose and emotion?
I eventually narrowed down my search to the concept of 'life', and then I figured it out:
Hehehe! I claim to have the meaning of life.
1 Corinthians 8:6 "Yet for us there is but one God, the Father, from whom all things came and FOR WHOM WE LIVE; and there is but one Lord, Jesus Christ, through whom all things came and through whom we live."
More revelant verses:
John 14:6 "Jesus answered 'I am the way, and the truth and the life...'"
1 John 5:11 "And this is the testimony: God has given us eternal life, and this life is in his Son."
John 10:10b "I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full."
From what do we draw satisfaction in life? God, or rather, a relationship with him, which is experiencing and knowing and learning all the properties of the good God. Rest in his strength, delight in the works of his hands, see the wonders he has made, proclaim his name with glad singing, feel his power working in you like a mighty river, laugh with joy at the good news, and be at peace for the king has come. Etc. Etc.
Primarily I was dissatisfied by being tired, and just wanted some energy. But my secondary search, and the one that can help us here, is my search for the things that give us energy day by day, the pleasure we derive from life. And this is simple, the various manifestations of an infinitely complex, creative, and loving God.
