stress of amazing God, life trajectory

Recently I have been highly animated, stressed out, and on fire for God. I wonder how, biophysically, humans can contain such a heightened level of experience. I may attribute it to some disease like mono (I'm tired a lot of the time), or something, but who knows?

So the questions is: what does everyday on-fire life look like? William Carey worked 14 hour days and is considered the father of modern missions. But he died relatively young, had a psychotic wife, and couldn't raise his children.

So how do I handle it?

And what on earth am I supposed to do for the advancement of Gods kingdom? This blog is kind of nice, but its only useful if people start seeing it. I could go from city to city speaking, like the Rebelution, which so far seems best.

But I have a good life trajectory set for civil engineering. Should I drop that and go philosophy? I suppose I'd only be dropping a couple years of my life, and gaining about 30-odd good ones.

But its such a hard decision! I pray that God would give me guidance.

May my struggles help you figure out what God has in store for you.